You’re not worth it.
He said to me,
As he walked out the door,
With his hands in his hair,
Frustrated with my need to be successful.
You’re not worth it.
She said to me,
As I collected my things,
Putting them in a cardboard box,
Another job,
Another loss.
You’re not worth it.
My family says,
As I explain my dreams,
My goals,
And my need for a different future.
You’re not worth it.
They said to me,
As I scrolled through social media,
Looking for confirmation,
About the decisions that I had made,
I had made for myself.
You’re not worth it.
I said to myself,
As I took another sip,
Of another drink,
At an unknown time.
You’re not worth it.
I heard from the radio,
As I drove,
Blurred vision, because..
Because no one paid enough attention,
To realize I was leaving drunk.
You’re not worth it.
The cop said,
As he spoke to the paramedic,
The paramedic who pulled me out of my car,
As I watched from above.
I was worth it.
But made to believe I wasn’t.
Made the choices that put me here.
You make the choices,
You decide,
Decide that you are worth it.